Hey everyone. Yesterday I turned 6 years sober. I like to say that the last time I went to rehab, I died and was reborn. I totally changed my life, got a degree, became an accountant and determined in my focus of clean eating and healthy habits. 

Since I got sober, I’ve been writing down my dreams. Since I started doing this (6 years ago) I’ve been able to lucid dream and control my thoughts, decide where to go, look at myself in the mirror, fly to where I want to go etc. 
the one thing that is present in almost every lucid dream is alcohol. It’s like in real life, I hate it, nothing in me wants to drink, even bartended for 4/6 of those years with not one craving. But in my dreams, I’m always drinking and scouting for alcohol and cigarettes because I am conscious to know that in my dreams, drinking and smoking is okay.
 
I get all the feelings of being drunk in my dreams, the good feelings and the sick ones. And when I’m feeling sick I tell myself “it’s okay, I’m only dreaming. I’ll wake up and feel fine. I could even drink more if I wanted to right now” It’s so beyond real. 

Does any other recovering alcoholic experience this?