Sometimes losing a pet is harder than losing a human. A pets love is always unconditional and the relationship is special in a different way. It’s ok to grieve how you need to and you should take all the time you need. I lost my best buddy 5 months ago and I have never felt grief so deep. I still cry when I think of him and I miss him so much. This is the price we pay for loving something so fiercely. There’s no good words. I’m truly sorry for your loss.