Hi All, I feel so alone lately and I need some encouragement/advice.

I’m 33 F (almost 34) and my husband & I got pregnant first try in August. Unfortunately I ended up having a miscarriage at 12 weeks, baby was not growing since our 7.5 week ultrasound and no FH was found. Devastating, gut wrenching, no words to describe the pain I felt and continue to feel. My doctor said there was no harm in trying before I got a menstrual period, and we didn’t want to wait, so we continue to try and I tested positive again. 2 days later, I started to bleed and my HCG levels were low and down trending, so I suffered a chemical pregnancy. I had an ultrasound that didn’t show any scarring but the report said no products of conception and “a small volume of blood degradation”. My doctor scared me with a concern of ectopic pregnancy, but my numbers dropped at a steady rate so they weren’t concerned anymore.

I got my period again in December, and we resumed trying. I didn’t notice any EWCM or obvious signs of ovulation (I wasn’t temping at that point), but we had sex more days than not. Fast forward to today and I’ve had now had 4 cycles since my CP.

This month, I tracked my BBT and confirmed ovulation. I had half of a day of EWCW and watery/cervical changes that I suspected might be signs of ovulation (CD 9) I had Day 3 cycle labs that my doctor deemed “normal”, but didn’t elaborate much despite my concerns I voiced to her. I checked my progesterone at day 22 (I had to push for this and my doctor told me it isn’t used to make any clinical decisions) and my level was 4.45 ng/mL, which from what I researched appears low but could indicate I ovulated. I had a second opinion in January that suggested I stop tracking, continue to try and check back in 6 months.

I have a gut feeling something is wrong. My husband has not been checked yet but we are initiating the process. Am I being crazy and overly anxious? It doesn’t make sense to me that I got pregnant the first time and have had now 2 losses and difficulty conceiving. I don’t want to wait another 6 months if we could get referred to a specialist now to investigate further.  My cycles are average 24-26 days, luteal phase 11-12 days, very light bleeding on CD1 and only 1 day to 1.5 days of heavy bleeding.

I apologize for the rant, and to anyone else who is struggling right now. I feel so alone and like my doctors aren’t listening to me. I would love some reassurance/experiences and support. ❤️

My labs are here; AMH 1.00 ng/mL (I think this is on the low end for my age) Prolactin 8.16 ng/mL Estradiol 35 LH 5.03 FSH 5.50 TSH 1.59 Progesterone 4.35 at day 22

In summary: I had no trouble conceiving on my first try, miscarriage followed by CP, and now having difficulty after 4 cycles. Concerns for low progesterone/fertility. Am I being overly anxious?

Thank you all in advance