It took a month for the biopsy to come back. Negative in atypical cells but is apparently not enough for a firm diagnosis or rule out. He’s 78 and he quit smoking just last year. He’s been a great athlete and was largely healthy all his life up until now, you couldn’t even tell he was in his 70s. He is very weak, can barely speak, has zero appetite yet is vomiting stomach acid, always in pain to where he can’t get up in bed let alone walk, he describes his abdominal pain with violent words and it seems to have swollen. He has every single symptom of lymphoma except for itching and it seems to be moving quickly. 

He went back to our home country for more tests and treatment, but he had to come back after 2 weeks to renew our residencies as well as his. We are not sure when they will be done and as uncomfortable as I am saying this lest I put some kind of jinx on it, I’m not sure if he’ll even finish them as we’ve been struggling with them for 2 years. I’m afraid something even worse will happen to him before he finishes them. 

In light of him being elderly, he has horrible temper issues which made it difficult for me to have a good relationship with him. I regret this. I don’t know what to do. Right now he is sitting across me, speaking weakly and delirious, talking to me about things that have not happened. I think he’s going through some sort of psychosis or just delirium. He’s constantly in horrible pain and it’s killing me. I graduate in 2 months and I’m afraid he won’t be there to see me. 