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conversations.value: the first five paragraphs for a book with the title 'Welcome to the Jungle'
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conversations.value: Welcome to the Jungle
  You (mistakenly) think you're famous and important or think you have special powers. You suddenly realize you're a better painter than anyone else in your art class, and start plotting an elaborate gallery opening at the Museum of Modern Art, featuring your work next to Van Gogh's. Your teacher is confused because this represents a major change from your normally humble personality.
  You keep coming home from the bar at 3 a.m. Tonight you take a one-hour nap, then go for a run, paint the house, and organize a dinner party for all your friends. Sleep is a bad word.
  You have pressured speech (the sensation that you need to be talking) and a flood of ideas you need to express. Friends and teachers ask you to slow down and explain your thoughts, but it's too hard.
  Your mind is like a speeding train, or several speeding trains on different tracks. You can't slow down your thoughts, and your ideas fly to their wildest conclusions. You might enjoy the sensation of being flooded with ideas at first, but later become overwhelmed and terrified by it.
  You run to the bar and make out with three different people over the course of a Rihanna single. You buy everyone a round, then flag down a taxi and give the driver a $100 tip for driving you home. You want to buy expensive presents for everybody you know.
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conversations.value: five more paragraphs
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conversations.value: When somebody commits suicide, it's upsetting not only because of the grief of losing that person, but also because suicide makes us realize how fragile life is—and that each of us has the stunning power to take our own life. Anybody old enough to walk has the power to kill themselves at pretty much any time, yet, by and large, we don't. Suicide reminds us that the line between life and death is always with us, always crossable, even when we forget it's there.
  Even if you never attempt suicide, having bipolar disorder can make you more aware of this fine line between life and death. Don't we take medication that drags us back from the "death" of depression? Don't we occasionally take wild, uncharacteristic risks, survive them, and realize death isn't as surefire a consequence as people think? Like running across a busy street during mania: "Wow, I can do this and not die. Am I a god? Am I invincible? Is my red sweater a charm making me immune to death?" And in depression: "How can I feel this bad and still be alive? Death must be something you experience every waking moment, not a special occasion that happens at the end of your life." For a severely depressed person, death can seem a constant, the most real and inescapable thing in the world, and for a manic person who has "cheated death," death dissolves into an abstract, unlikely joke. Maybe our ongoing flirtations with Señor Death, in addition to our weird brain chemistry, make people with bipolar more likely to actually cross the line.
  Well, for starters you could die. And as much fun as that sounds, I'm not coming after you. (Actually, I will, eventually, but this is neither here nor there.)
  If you don't die, you'll be found or stopped by somebody and taken to the emergency room. This is what goes down when you go to the emergency room following a suicide attempt:
  The emergency-room staff stabilize you physically (by pumping your stomach, extracting the bullet from your chest, sewing up your arms, etc.) and emotionally (by sedating you). They do tests to see if you're drunk, on street drugs, or on medication that might be causing a suicidal side effect. Next, you'll go through a mental-health assessment, where they'll try to figure out how crazy you are, whether your craziness is acute or chronic, whether you have previous suicide attempts, and why you tried to commit suicide this time. You, your family, and the doctors will talk about treatment options and support systems that are available to you. Next, the emergency-department personnel will decide if you need to be hospitalized, either of your own free will or by having you committed. If they decide to have you committed, a legal process will ensue that will take from three to ten days. If they decide you don't need to be hospitalized, you'll be sent home with a plan to check in with your doctor regularly and stay away from guns and knives.
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conversations.value: the last five paragraphs
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conversations.value: Crazymeds is the place to go for exhaustive information on the meds you're taking. The site is run by Jerod Poore, a "citizen medical expert" who himself has autism and bipolar disorder. In addition to regularly updated drug info, there are message boards where you can connect with other people who take crazy meds.
  Half of Us is a big-budget, college mental-health awareness campaign with a pretty great website. The site features videos and stories from youth with mental illnesses and information on subjects that are too often silent on college campuses, including suicide, self- injury, and drug abuse.
  NIMH is a government-funded organization that publishes news and research on mental-health topics. It's a good place to read about the latest clinical trials or the results of studies about bipolar, schizophrenia, and depression. Keep it in mind for your next research paper.
  National 24/7 suicide crisis hotline. Call for free from any phone, any time, to speak with a trained counselor. Your call will be routed to the closest crisis center in your area, and whoever you talk to will be able to direct you to further help once the call is over. Also available in Spanish.
  If you're between the ages of twelve and twenty and have run away from home (for example, during a manic episode), you can call this number to arrange a free Greyhound ride back to your folks. The switchboard operators will also connect you with resources and counseling if your family is having conflicts.
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conversations.value: Swap the first and the last sentence.
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conversations.value: The switchboard operators will also connect you with resources and counseling if your family is having conflicts. The site is run by Jerod Poore, a "citizen medical expert" who himself has autism and bipolar disorder. In addition to regularly updated drug info, there are message boards where you can connect with other people who take crazy meds.
  Half of Us is a big-budget, college mental-health awareness campaign with a pretty great website. The site features videos and stories from youth with mental illnesses and information on subjects that are too often silent on college campuses, including suicide, self- injury, and drug abuse.
  NIMH is a government-funded organization that publishes news and research on mental-health topics. It's a good place to read about the latest clinical trials or the results of studies about bipolar, schizophrenia, and depression. Keep it in mind for your next research paper.
  National 24/7 suicide crisis hotline. Call for free from any phone, any time, to speak with a trained counselor. Your call will be routed to the closest crisis center in your area, and whoever you talk to will be able to direct you to further help once the call is over. Also available in Spanish.
  If you're between the ages of twelve and twenty and have run away from home (for example, during a manic episode), you can call this number to arrange a free Greyhound ride back to your folks.Crazymeds is the place to go for exhaustive information on the meds you're taking.