human
What can I do? she said;
gpt
I, too, feel some regret at heart, for, after all, I was fond of life; but aside from my vocation, which I believe quite real, I am yielding to a positive necessity. There is no other existence possible for me but that one. I know very well--it's my own fault; I have been somewhat foolish--I should not have left you in the first place, or at least, I should have returned to your house immediately after your marriage. Now, after months, and even years, is it possible, I ask you? In the first place, I would die with shame. Can you imagine me in the presence of your husband? What sort of countenance could I put on? And then, he must fairly detest me, the bent must be firmly taken in his mind. Finally, I should be in all respects terribly in your way!
human
But, my dear child, no one hates you; you would be received with transports of joy, like the prodigal child. If you deem it too painful to return to my home--if you fear to find or to bring trouble there with you--God knows how mistaken you are on this point! but still, if you do fear it, is that a reason why you should bury yourself alive and break my heart? Could you not return into the world without returning to my own house, and without having to face all those difficulties that frighten you? There would be a very simple way of doing that, you know!
gpt
What is it? said Julia quietly;
human
Undoubtedly,
gpt
But, mon Dieu! mother, what possible chance is there of such a thing? Suppose I were willing--and I am far from it--I know no one, no one knows me.
human
There is some one, rejoined Clotilde, with increasing timidity;
gpt
Pierre?
human
Yes,