human
I shall give up this house, she said.
gpt
I can't afford to keep it; and in truth I shall not want it. I don't in the least know where to go, but I don't think that it much signifies. Any place will be the same to me now.
human
I don't see why you should say that.
gpt
What does it matter?
human
You wouldn't think of going out of London.
gpt
Why not? I suppose I had better go wherever I can live cheapest.
human
I should be sorry that you should be settled where I could not see you,
gpt
So shall I,--very. You have been more kind to me than anybody. But what am I to do? If I stay in London I can live only in some miserable lodgings. I know you will laugh at me, and tell me that I am wrong; but my idea is that I shall follow Felix wherever he goes, so that I may be near him and help him when he needs help. Hetta doesn't want me. There is nobody else that I can do any good to.
human
I want you,
gpt
Ah,--that is so kind of you. There is nothing makes one so good as goodness;--nothing binds your friend to you so firmly as the acceptance from him of friendly actions. You say you want me, because I have so sadly wanted you. When I go you will simply miss an almost daily trouble, but where shall I find a friend?
human
When I said I wanted you, I meant more than that, Lady Carbury. Two or three months ago I asked you to be my wife. You declined, chiefly, if I understood you rightly, because of your son's position. That has been altered, and therefore I ask you again. I have quite convinced myself,--not without some doubts, for you shall know all; but, still, I have quite convinced myself,--that such a marriage will best contribute to my own happiness. I do not think, dearest, that it would mar yours.
gpt
Well, he said;
human
That was the reason,
gpt
But I shall love you better still for accepting me now,--if you will accept me.
human
You can hardly have thought of it enough,
gpt
I have thought of it a good deal too. I have been thinking of it for six months at least.
human
There is so much against me.
gpt
What is there against you?
human
They say bad things of me in India.
gpt
I know all about that,
human
And Felix!
gpt
I think I may say that I know all about that also.
human
And then I have become so poor!
gpt
I am not proposing to myself to marry you for your money. Luckily for me,--I hope luckily for both of us,--it is not necessary that I should do so.
human
And then I seem so to have fallen through in everything. I don't know what I've got to give to a man in return for all that you offer to give to me.
gpt
Yourself,