human
I know what you've come for,
gpt
That means, I suppose, that Olivia has got ahead of me.
human
She told me what you've proposed. It's very fine--very sporting.
gpt
I haven't proposed it because it's either sporting or fine. It seems to me the only thing to do.
human
Y-es; I can understand that you should feel so about it. I should myself if I were in your place and had a right to be generous. The trouble is--that it wouldn't work.
gpt
Wouldn't work? Why not?
human
It's no use going over the arguments as to the effect on your position. You've considered all that, no doubt, and feel that you can meet it. Whether you could or not when it came to the point is another question. But no matter. There are one or two things you haven't considered. I hate to put them before you, because--well, because you're a fine fellow--and it's too bad that you should be in this fix. It's part of my--my--my chastisement--to have put you there; but it'll be something to me--some alleviation; if you can understand--to help to get you out.
gpt
Suppose I were to let you go ahead on this--let you raise the money--and take it from you--and pay Davenant--and all that--then you might marry my daughter, and get life on some sort of tolerable working basis. I dare say. He pulled himself forward on the couch. Ashley noticed the blazing of his eyes and hectic color in his cheeks.
human
You might even be happy, in a way, he went on,
gpt
Didn't have--you? I don't understand--
human
And you'd _have_ me. You couldn't get out of it. I'm done for--I'm no good to any one any more--but I'm not going to die. That's my point. That's my punishment, too. Can't you imagine what it means to a man like me--who used to think well of himself--who's been well thought of--can't you imagine what it is to have to inspire every one who belongs to him with loathing? That's what I've got to do for the rest of my life--and I'm going to _live_.
gpt
Oh, I say!
human
You mayn't believe it, Ashley, but I'd rather have been--shut up--put away--where people couldn't see me--where I didn't have to see them. You know Olivia and I were facing that. I expect she's told you. And 'pon my soul there are many ways in which it would have been easier than--than this. But that's not what I'm coming to. The great fact is that after you'd counted your cost and done your utmost you still have _me_--like a dead rat strung round your neck--
gpt
Oh, I say, by Jove!
human
Olivia, poor child, has to bear it. She can, too. That's a remarkable thing about us New England people--our grit in the face of disgrace. I fancy there are many of our women who'd be as plucky as she--and I know one man. I don't know any others.