human
I'm coming to that, darling. You must let me tell it to you all as it happened.
gpt
We went and walked in the garden, Beatrix went on.
human
We talked about what we would do when we were married--where we should live, and all that. I felt quite pleased and excited. It was something going to happen. I think only one part of me was working. And I felt as if I'd come to anchor. You know, darling, I _haven't_ enjoyed myself this year, as I did last. _That_ had spoilt everything for me. I think if I had lived quietly at home, as you have, it might have been different. But I'm rather tired of going about, and remembering _that_ all the time. I don't want _him_ any longer--of course. I hate him. But what I thought he was--having somebody all my own who would love me, and I would do all I could to make him happy--I suppose if you've once wanted that you always want it; and a home of your own, and children of your own to love.
gpt
Yes, I know, dearest,