human
But it explains away so much, she said.
gpt
If you stop going there--everyone will talk. Everything will swing round--and point here.
human
Rachel!
gpt
No, she said, overbearing me,
human
Mind my dress,
gpt
Anyone, she said,
human
I never thought,
gpt
It's too late if they have, said she, pulling me back to her.
human
Over beyond there, that must be Hindhead. Someone with a telescope----!
gpt
That's less credible,
human
I wish, I said,
gpt
Now, she said,
human
Why, I said presently,
gpt
You are hard to satisfy, brother heart,
human
I live in snatches of brightness and all the rest of life is waiting and thinking and waiting.
gpt
What else is there? Haven't we the brightness?
human
I want you, I said.
gpt
I want _you_ altogether.
human
After so much?
gpt
I want the more. Mary, I want you to come away with me. No, listen! this life--don't think I'm not full of the beauty, the happiness, the wonder---- But it's a suspense. It doesn't go on. It's just a dawn, dear, a splendid dawn, a glory of color and brightness and freshness and hope, and--no sun rises. I want the day. Everything else has stopped with me and stopped with you. I do nothing with my politics now,--I pretend. I have no plans in life except plans for meeting you and again meeting you. I want to go on, I want to go on with you and take up work and the world again--you beside me. I want you to come out of all this life--out of all this immense wealthy emptiness of yours----
human
Stop, she said,
gpt
I won't, she said slowly.
human
I am going on like this. I and you are going to be lovers--just as we are lovers now--secret lovers. And I am going to help you in all your projects, hold your party together--for you will have a party--my house shall be its centre----
gpt
But Justin----
human
He takes no interest in politics. He will do what pleases me.
gpt
You don't understand how men feel,
human
You see---- I can't do it. I want you.
gpt
Haven't you got me? she asked between her teeth.
human
What more _could_ you have?
gpt
I want you openly.
human
It's the trouble of the deceit?
gpt
It's--the deceit.
human
We can stop all that,
gpt
By having no more to hide, she said, with her eyes full of tears.
human
If it's nothing to you----
gpt
It's everything to me, I said.
human
It's overwhelming me. Oh Mary, heart of my life, my dear, come out of this! Come with me, come and be my wife, make a clean thing of it! Let me take you away, and then let me marry you. I know it's asking you--to come to a sort of poverty----
gpt
Isn't it a clean thing _now_, Stephen? she was crying.
human
Do you mean that you and I aren't clean now? Will you never understand?
gpt
Oh clean, I answered,
human
Come back to what? she cried.
gpt
Parliament?--after that? You _boy!_ you sentimentalist! you--you duffer! Do you think I'd let you do it for your own sake even? Do you think I want you--spoilt? We should come back to mope outside of things, we should come back to fret our lives out. I won't do it, Stephen, I won't do it. End _this_ if you like, break our hearts and throw them away and go on without them, but to turn all our lives into a scandal, to give ourselves over to the mean and the malicious, a prey to old women--and _you_ damned out of everything! A man partly forgiven! A man who went wrong for a woman! _No!_
human
And I came here to be made love to, Stephen! I came here to be loved! And you talk that nonsense! You remind me of everything--wretched!
gpt
You _duffer_!