human
And there is no doubt the liking is mutual, said Moore.
gpt
If she professes friendship, be certain she is sincere. She cannot feign; she scorns hypocrisy. And, Caroline, are we never to see you at Hollow's Cottage again?
human
I suppose not, unless my uncle should change his mind.
gpt
Are you much alone now?
human
Yes, a good deal. I have little pleasure in any society but Miss Keeldar's.
gpt
Have you been quite well lately?
human
Quite.
gpt
You must take care of yourself. Be sure not to neglect exercise. Do you know I fancied you somewhat altered--a little fallen away, and pale. Is your uncle kind to you?
human
Yes; he is just as he always is.
gpt
Not too tender, that is to say--not too protective and attentive. And what ails you, then? Tell me, Lina.
human
Nothing, Robert.
gpt
That is to say, nothing that you will tell me. I am not to be taken into confidence. Separation is then quite to estrange us, is it?
human
I do not know. Sometimes I almost fear it is.
gpt
But it ought not to have that effect. 'Should auld acquaintance be forgot, and days o' lang syne?'
human
Robert, I don't forget.
gpt
It is two months, I should think, Caroline, since you were at the cottage.
human
Since I was _within_ it--yes.
gpt
Have you ever passed that way in your walk?
human
I have come to the top of the fields sometimes of an evening and looked down. Once I saw Hortense in the garden watering her flowers, and I know at what time you light your lamp in the counting-house. I have waited for it to shine out now and then, and I have seen you bend between it and the window. I knew it was you; I could almost trace the outline of your form.
gpt
I wonder I never encountered you. I occasionally walk to the top of the Hollow's fields after sunset.
human
I know you do. I had almost spoken to you one night, you passed so near me.
gpt
Did I? I passed near you, and did not see you! Was I alone?
human
I saw you twice, and neither time were you alone.
gpt
Who was my companion? Probably nothing but Joe Scott, or my own shadow by moonlight.
human
No; neither Joe Scott nor your shadow, Robert. The first time you were with Mr. Yorke; and the second time what you call your shadow was a shape with a white forehead and dark curls, and a sparkling necklace round its neck. But I only just got a glimpse of you and that fairy shadow; I did not wait to hear you converse.
gpt
It appears you walk invisible. I noticed a ring on your hand this evening; can it be the ring of Gyges? Henceforth, when sitting in the counting-house by myself, perhaps at dead of night, I shall permit myself to imagine that Caroline may be leaning over my shoulder reading with me from the same book, or sitting at my side engaged in her own particular task, and now and then raising her unseen eyes to my face to read there my thoughts.
human
You need fear no such infliction. I do not come near you; I only stand afar off, watching what may become of you.
gpt
When I walk out along the hedgerows in the evening after the mill is shut, or at night when I take the watchman's place, I shall fancy the flutter of every little bird over its nest, the rustle of every leaf, a movement made by you; tree-shadows will take your shape; in the white sprays of hawthorn I shall imagine glimpses of you. Lina, you will haunt me.
human
I will never be where you would not wish me to be, nor see nor hear what you would wish unseen and unheard.
gpt
I shall see you in my very mill in broad daylight. Indeed, I have seen you there once. But a week ago I was standing at the top of one of my long rooms; girls were working at the other end, and amongst half a dozen of them, moving to and fro, I seemed to see a figure resembling yours. It was some effect of doubtful light or shade, or of dazzling sunbeam. I walked up to this group. What I sought had glided away; I found myself between two buxom lasses in pinafores.
human
I shall not follow you into your mill, Robert, unless you call me there.
gpt
Nor is that the only occasion on which imagination has played me a trick. One night, when I came home late from market, I walked into the cottage parlour thinking to find Hortense; but instead of her I thought I found you. There was no candle in the room; my sister had taken the light upstairs with her. The window-blind was not drawn, and broad moonbeams poured through the panes. There you were, Lina, at the casement, shrinking a little to one side in an attitude not unusual with you. You were dressed in white, as I have seen you dressed at an evening party. For half a second your fresh, living face seemed turned towards me, looking at me; for half a second my idea was to go and take your hand, to chide you for your long absence, and welcome your present visit. Two steps forward broke the spell. The drapery of the dress changed outline; the tints of the complexion dissolved, and were formless. Positively, as I reached the spot, there was nothing left but the sweep of a white muslin curtain, and a balsam plant in a flower-pot, covered with a flush of bloom. 'Sic transit,' et cetera.
human
It was not my wraith, then? I almost thought it was.
gpt
No; only gauze, crockery, and pink blossom--a sample of earthly illusions.
human
I wonder you have time for such illusions, occupied as your mind must be.
gpt
So do I. But I find in myself, Lina, two natures--one for the world and business, and one for home and leisure. Gérard Moore is a hard dog, brought up to mill and market; the person you call your cousin Robert is sometimes a dreamer, who lives elsewhere than in Cloth-hall and counting-house.
human
Your two natures agree with you. I think you are looking in good spirits and health. You have quite lost that harassed air which it often pained one to see in your face a few months ago.
gpt
Do you observe that? Certainly I am disentangled of some difficulties. I have got clear of some shoals, and have more sea-room.
human
And, with a fair wind, you may now hope to make a prosperous voyage?
gpt
I may _hope_ it--yes--but hope is deceptive. There is no controlling wind or wave. Gusts and swells perpetually trouble the mariner's course; he dare not dismiss from his mind the expectation of tempest.
human
But you are ready for a breeze; you are a good seaman, an able commander. You are a skilful pilot, Robert; you will weather the storm.
gpt
My kinswoman always thinks the best of me, but I will take her words for a propitious omen. I will consider that in meeting her to-night I have met with one of those birds whose appearance is to the sailor the harbinger of good luck.
human
A poor harbinger of good luck is she who can do nothing, who has no power. I feel my incapacity. It is of no use saying I have the will to serve you when I cannot prove it. Yet I have that will. I wish you success. I wish you high fortune and true happiness.
gpt
When did you ever wish me anything else? What is Fanny waiting for? I told her to walk on. Oh! we have reached the churchyard. Then we are to part here, I suppose. We might have sat a few minutes in the church porch, if the girl had not been with us. It is so fine a night, so summer-mild and still, I have no particular wish to return yet to the Hollow.
human
But we cannot sit in the porch now, Robert.
gpt
Perhaps not. But tell Fanny to go in. Say we are coming. A few minutes will make no difference.
human
My uncle will be coming out to take his usual sentinel round, and he always surveys the church and churchyard.
gpt
And if he does? If it were not for Fanny, who knows we are here, I should find pleasure in dodging and eluding him. We could be under the east window when he is at the porch; as he came round to the north side we could wheel off to the south; we might at a pinch hide behind some of the monuments. That tall erection of the Wynnes would screen us completely.
human
Robert, what good spirits you have! Go! go! added Caroline hastily.
gpt
I hear the front door----
human
I don't want to go; on the contrary, I want to stay.
gpt
You know my uncle will be terribly angry. He forbade me to see you because you are a Jacobin.
human
A queer Jacobin!
gpt
Go, Robert, he is coming; I hear him cough.
human
Diable! It is strange--what a pertinacious wish I feel to stay!
gpt
You remember what he did to Fanny's-- began Caroline, and stopped abruptly short.
human
Sweetheart was the word that ought to have followed, but she could not utter it. It seemed calculated to suggest ideas she had no intention to suggest--ideas delusive and disturbing. Moore was less scrupulous.
gpt
Fanny's sweetheart? he said at once.
human
He gave him a shower-bath under the pump, did he not? He'd do as much for me, I dare say, with pleasure. I should like to provoke the old Turk--not, however, against you. But he would make a distinction between a cousin and a lover, would he not?
gpt
Oh, he would not think of you in that way, of course not; his quarrel with you is entirely political. Yet I should not like the breach to be widened, and he is so testy. Here he is at the garden gate. For your own sake and mine, Robert, go!
human
Good-night!