human
I used to laugh at it a good deal more than I do now, he said.
gpt
I've been through it all. Sometimes when I go to town I say to myself, 'I will not turn at that corner,' but when I come to the corner, I do turn. Then I say 'I will not go into that bar,' but I do go in. 'I will not order anything to drink,' I say to myself, and then I hear myself talking aloud to the barkeeper just as though I were some other person. 'Give me a glass of rye,' I say, and I stand off looking at myself, very angry and sorrowful. But gradually I seem to grow weaker and weaker--or rather stronger and stronger--for my brain begins to become clear, and I see things and feel things I never saw or felt before. I want to sing.
human
And you do sing,
gpt
I do, indeed, he responded, laughing,
human
Sometimes, I said,
gpt
Haven't I tried that, too? Don't I think of other things? I think of bees--and that leads me to honey, doesn't it? And that makes me think of putting the honey in the wagon and taking it to town. Then, of course, I think how it will sell. Instantly, stronger than you can imagine, I see a dime in my hand. Then it appears on the wet bar. I _smell_ the _smell_ of the liquor. And there you are!
human
I am glad of this talk, Mr. Grayson. It makes me feel like taking hold again. I have been in hell for years----
gpt
Of course, I said.
human
You needed a friend. You and I will come up together.