human
I did not see him for four years--did not wish to.... And he vanished completely.... Four years!--just a welcome blank!
gpt
But even a blank like that can become unendurable. To be always dragging at a chain, and not knowing where it leads to.... Her hand slipped from the gold cross on her breast and fell to the other in her lap, which it clutched tightly.
human
Four years.... I tried to make myself believe that he was gone forever--was dead. It was wicked of me.
gpt
Yes, and even worse than that. During the past month I have actually prayed that he might be dead.... I shall be punished for it.