document: Elizabeth: Ms. Gilbert is currently stable, but as expected, her system is compromised by the advanced state of the AIDS virus.
  Patrick: She's alive today. That's all that matters.
  Elizabeth: Because of you.
  Alan: I heard about the incident in the O.R.
  Patrick: So you know that I pricked myself during the procedure?
  Robin: And as I explained, if Patrick would've stopped to wash his hands, the patient would've died.
  Alan: I'm not here to criticize you, but your patient has end-stage AIDS and you've been exposed. So you need to be tested immediately for HIV and for Hep B and C.
  Robin: Which you have a higher risk of contracting.
  Patrick: How long for results?
  Alan: 24 hours. But in the meantime, I strongly recommend you start post- exposure prophylaxes.
  Robin: P.E.P. -- anti-retroviral drugs.
  Patrick: Yep. Whatever's necessary.
  Alan: Okay. Exam room three, 10 minutes.
  Patrick: Okay.
  Alan: Elizabeth, I'm going to need you.
  Robin: Patrick?
  Patrick: You don't need to baby-sit me. I'm going to be fine.
  [SCENE_BREAK]
  Nikolas: Alfred --
  Alfred: Hmm?
  Nikolas: We need to discuss this sudden interest you've taken in my social life.
  Alfred: I understand. You're about to take me to task for my matchmaking attempts with your ex-wife.
  Nikolas: Actually, I was going to thank you.
  [SCENE_BREAK]
  Sonny: Dr. Lainey started laying in on me, talking to me about things she shouldn't be talking to me about. I don't care how many -- how many certificates she has on the wall.
  Emily: Do you want to tell me?
  Sonny: Yeah, I'll tell you. Dr. Winters says that it's my mother's fault that my stepfather beat me, that she should've protected me -- like anybody knows what happened all those years ago. I got mad -- how can you blame me? And you know what Dr. Winters says?
  Emily: Uh-uh.
  Sonny: Dose up the medication.
  Emily: I'm sure it's not meant to punish you. Dr. Winters is committed to -- to getting you better.
  Sonny: To what, doping me up? I got -- I have a temper. I know that. Right.
  Emily: Yeah, your temper is the reason you need to stay in therapy, Sonny. You've lived through so much.
  Sonny: Right. Right. And I survived it.
  Emily: Yes.
  Sonny: Right.
  Emily: You did. But the little boy inside of you is still suffering. Can't -- can't you accept the reality of what happened to you?
  Sonny: So you feel the same way? That it's my mother's fault that that pig hit her and me and --
  Emily: Please don't put words in my mouth. I'm not --
  Sonny: You know, I don't care how many years of therapy I have to go through, how many bottles of lithium I have to take, I will never blame my mother. And not you or anybody else will judge her.
  Carly: Sonny -- stop. Hey -- you need to calm down. I realize you might've had a hard session with Lainey, but that doesn't give you the right to come here and take it out on Emily.
  Emily: I don't need you to protect me from Sonny, Carly, and please don't blame this on the therapy. It's just going to give him another excuse to quit.
  Sonny: Okay, you know, don't talk to Carly like you're in charge of my life, because you're not.
  Emily: Stop treating me like I'm the enemy, because I'm trying to get you help.
  Emily: We get it, Sonny. You hate therapy. Well, guess what -- so does everybody else who's ever had to go through it. But you get the work done. You take an active role in your own well-being instead of raging out of control and punishing the people who are trying to help you.
  Sonny: I'm sorry, I didn't mean to --
  Emily: Yeah, you're always sorry -- not enough. You're not stumbling around in the dark anymore. You know what's wrong with you, you know how to manage it. Stop cowering in the closet. You're not a child. Come out and take control of your life before you wreck it for good.
  Carly: Who knew? The mouse roars.
  Sonny: Don't start.
  Carly: I can't believe I'm saying this, but I agree with Emily. She's right.
  Sonny: I agree.
  Carly: You do?
  Sonny: Yeah. She -- she deserves a lot more than I've been handing out. Something's got to change.
  [SCENE_BREAK]
  Nikolas: I loathe to admit it, but I have enjoyed the time Emily spent here at your instigation.
  Alfred: Hmm. Does that mean I have your permission to lure the former Mrs. Cassadine here as often as inspiration allows?
  Nikolas: As tempting as your offer may sound, it wouldn't be fair for me to impose on Emily's good nature for any lack that I may be feeling in my life.
  Alfred: Hmm. Sensitive history aside, your son still needs a mother.
  [John coos]
  Colleen: There's my favorite guy. Give Colleen that special smile. You know me, don't you, sweetheart? It's a beautiful day.
  Nikolas: Mm-hmm.
  Colleen: I thought I'd take John for a walk through the meadow.
  Nikolas: Yeah, that sounds good.
  Colleen: Make it even better and join us.
  [SCENE_BREAK]
  Sam: Hey, I am so sorry. I know you've been waiting for the parole documents. The courthouse elevator stalled on me twice this morning. Someone's either got it out for me, or it's just, you know, dangerous.
  Lucky: Okay, I'll call maintenance.
  Sam: Okay. All right, I'm off.
  Lucky: Hey, Sam? A file that connects Jason with the Escobars went missing. Stuff around here gets misplaced all the time. So if that file --
  [Sam sighs]
  Lucky: Were to turn up, say, in that stack that you just dropped off, no one would question it.
  Sam: So you think that I stole that file to protect Jason?
  Lucky: No, that's not what I'm saying.
  Sam: Well, I got your drift anyway. You're not very subtle, and you're not very well informed, either. Jason broke up with me -- unceremoniously, I might add -- so I'm not exactly motivated to risk my new job to protect him. And it doesn't really matter what kind of incriminating evidence you have in that file, the police department has never been able to pin anything on him. And I don't think they -- you -- ever will.
  Lucky: What, because he's innocent, or because he's good at covering up his tracks?
  Sam: Either way, Jason doesn't need me to protect him.
  Lucky: I'm sorry if I offended you. I just thought you might want to know that Jason's off his game.
  Sam: Whoa, wait a minute. What do you mean by that?
  Lucky: Because Manny shot Jason. I had to save Jason's life.
  Sam: Wait a minute. You don't seriously believe that, do you?
  Lucky: Why are you looking like you've never even heard this before? It was all over the news. I shot and killed Manny. I even got a promotion --
  Sam: Whoa, whoa, whoa. When you went onto that roof, Jason and Manny were already fighting, right?
  Lucky: Jason was wounded.
  Sam: Did they see you?
  Lucky: No, not at first.
  Sam: Not at first? Because they were still wrapped up in the moment. They were only worried about who would survive.
  Lucky: So what?
  Sam: "So what?" Jason -- it doesn't matter how much pain he was in or how hurt he was. He wasn't going to leave that roof until Manny was dead.
  Lucky: Well, now it's my turn to ask what you're implying. You don't think I shot Manny?
  Sam: I'm not saying that. You could've shot Manny. I don't think Manny died in your hands.
  Lucky: I was there and I know what happened.
  Sam: And I know Jason. He knew what a threat Manny was to everyone that he loved. He wasn't going to leave that roof until the threat was removed.
  Lucky: Jason tell you that?
  Sam: No, he didn't have to. Because Jason always does what he says --
  Lucky: Right.
  Sam: Even when it hurts.
  Lucky: Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.
  [SCENE_BREAK]
  Alfred: Well, I'm glad we caught you.
  Nikolas: "We"?
  Alfred: Miss Emily is here -- of her own volition, sir.
  Nikolas: Hi.
  Emily: Hi.
  Nikolas: This is a nice surprise.
  Emily: Yeah, I should've called first.
  Nikolas: No, no, no --
  Colleen: We were just about to take a walk.
  Emily: Oh, okay. No, I -- I won't interrupt your plans. Um -- I just had a disagreeable few hours and I needed a dose of innocence to cheer me up.
  Nikolas: Oh, okay. Well, we got plenty of that. Colleen, take the rest of the afternoon off. Emily and I will -- we'll take John. Come here, buddy. It'll give us a chance to take a look at the new stables.
  Colleen: Oh, of course.
  Nikolas: See you.
  Emily: Bye.
  Alfred: Mark my words -- those two will be a couple again in a matter of months.
  [Colleen sighs]
  [SCENE_BREAK]
  Sonny: I know Emily doesn't seem very strong, but I tell you what, she's a lot stronger than people give her credit for. She never folded. She went against everybody, including Jason, her family -- even you. She gave -- you know, she gave me all she had, and it's not her fault that I was too scared to hold up my end of the deal.
  Carly: What were you afraid of?
  Sonny: I was afraid that I was going to do what I -- what I just did -- get angry or -- everything that you and Jason warned me about. Emily -- you know, she was the brave one. I had feelings for her, I could not own them. She just said it straight out, no pretense, no games. But I knew eventually I would wreck her, that she should not be with a man like me. And I got to tell you something. The minute I opened my heart to her, I let the sickness in. Now, that's wrong, twisted. Why would I do that?
  Carly: You're asking me?
  Sonny: Yeah, yeah.
  Carly: The queen of self-destruction? God created therapy for people like us, Sonny.
  Sonny: You think I should stay with it?
  Carly: Yeah, I do.
  Sonny: Maybe you're right. Sitting with Lainey an hour at a time, taking medication like a good little boy could level me out. I don't think so, but possibly. Okay. I tell you what, one thing I do know for sure, I will never be an easy person to live with. Not the kind of man, the kind of "prince" Emily deserves.
  [SCENE_BREAK]
  Alan: Thank you, Elizabeth. Will you get that to the lab?
  Elizabeth: Right away.
  Patrick: I didn't get a chance to thank you. You did amazing work in the O.R. You didn't flinch once, and I know it was a big risk to have us all in there.
  Elizabeth: Well, it's a privilege to assist you under any circumstance. You're an amazing doctor.
  Patrick: What now?
  Alan: Well, if you test positive, we'll get you on to a protocol right away.
  Patrick: If I'm negative?
  Alan: You will still continue to take the anti-retroviral drugs for another four weeks. Then in January, we'll test you again just as a precautionary measure. The good news is -- if there is such a thing -- is that 99% of the people who come up positive will do so in the first six months. Hey, try not to worry, Patrick. I'm going to get this prescription in.
  Robin: Hey.
  Patrick: You don't have to keep popping in. I'm sure there's patients worse off than me that could use your pushy bedside manner.
  Robin: I was just checking on you. I thought if you wanted to, we could talk. If you need to be alone, that's okay.
  Patrick: I was going to say that alone would be good, but I could really use your company.
  [SCENE_BREAK]
  Sam: Whoa, whoa, whoa, wait! Hold the elevator! Oh, gosh. Oh, unbelievable. I'm sorry -- no, I got it.
  Jason: That's all right.
  Sam: Oh, you're kidding me, right? I must be wearing a path. Why? Why?
  Jason: You dropped this.
  [Elevator stops]
  Sam: Oh. Can this day get any worse? Don't answer that, please.
  [SCENE_BREAK]
  Carly: You know, I've never been a fan of the Sonny/Emily combo platter. It's not like her to go off on you like she was when I walked in the door. So that tells me there's something deeper going on. Want to talk about it?
  Sonny: Well, I'm kind of all talked out right now. First it was Lainey, then Emily, and I just--
  Carly: So you guys were arguing over something that started in your therapy session?
  Sonny: You're not going to let go of this, are you?
  Carly: No.
  Sonny: Okay.
  Carly: So you might as well humor me.
  Sonny: All right. Oh -- Lainey upped up -- she wanted me to take more medication and I kind of fought her on it.
  Carly: Why?
  Sonny: Why? Because I -- I decided to take the medication so it could control my emotions. I don't want to take it and then not feel anything at all.
  Carly: Lainey is a good therapist. She's not trigger-happy when it comes to prescribing medication. If she says she needs to up your dosage, then maybe she does, and you need to go with it, Sonny.
  Sonny: Oh, I don't know.
  Carly: You need to find someone to trust while you're going through this.
  Sonny: Okay.
  Carly: Stay open, trust your shrink, work the program, okay? It's the only way you're going to fix what's broken.
  Sonny: Some things can't be fixed.
  Carly: Like what?
  Sonny: I don't know.
  Carly: Like what? What's going on?
  Sonny: Like what happened to my mother. Lainey says to me that it -- it was my mother's fault that my stepfather beat the hell out of me. That if I should be mad at anybody, it should be my mother.
  Carly: Maybe she has a point.
  Sonny: Okay, don't -- you don't -- you don't want to go there, okay?
  Carly: I used to wonder myself why you were never mad at Adela.
  Sonny: I'm warning you, don't point fingers at my mother for this.
  Carly: Okay, well, how about this? It's a good thing I never met her, because I would've kicked her butt to Buffalo and back.
  [SCENE_BREAK]
  Robin: So, Alan's putting you on PEP?
  Patrick: I think so. Ahem. Honestly, I have no idea what I agreed to.
  Robin: Well, you're in shock.
  Patrick: Yeah.
  Robin: It'll pass.
  Patrick: It's kind of different for me, huh?
  Robin: Hmm?
  Patrick: Contemplating my mortality? I can honestly say I've never given it a second thought, even after the liver transplant.
  Robin: Well, that is the beauty of a doctor's psyche -- we live on the line between life and death every day and assume that it'll never happen to us.
  Patrick: Hey, I guess we have to live that way. Otherwise, we'd be paralyzed. Can I pick your brain?
  Robin: Sure.
  Patrick: After the initial shock wears off, what can I expect?
  Robin: Oh, lots of fun stuff -- denial, paranoia, anger -- um -- regret, fear. And then acceptance kind of creeps in, which will help prepare you for whatever should happen.
  Patrick: What about a reaction to meds?
  Robin: Oh, I'd keep a little barf bag with you at all times.
  Patrick: Charming.
  Robin: There are worse things, actually, like not knowing if you're infected, or trying to ignore it so it'll go away. But you are doing the right thing by being proactive about it. The anti-retroviral medication can work.
  Patrick: I wish there had been an option for you.
  Robin: Me, too. I have to go do rounds.
  Patrick: Yeah.
  Robin: I will come back when I'm finished.
  [Patrick sighs]
  Elizabeth: Hey.
  Patrick: Hey.
  Elizabeth: Your blood work is in the lab, and my shift is over.
  Patrick: Good. Go home and get some rest. You deserve it.
  Elizabeth: I feel like I need to say something, I just don't know what.
  Patrick: Wow. That's a change for you.
  Elizabeth: Gee, thanks.
  Patrick: Thank you. It's the thought that counts. Go home, get some rest, tell Lucky what happened. I'm sure he'll agree that I'm hands-off now. You okay?
  Elizabeth: Yeah. Yeah.
  Patrick: Honestly, if there's something you want to talk about, I could really use the distraction.
  Elizabeth: Okay. It -- it's Lucky. He's -- um -- he's kind of in a weird place right now. It's like he's balanced on the edge of an abyss, and I'm afraid it wouldn't take much to push him over.
  [SCENE_BREAK]
  Jason: Maintenance realizes there's a problem with this elevator, but they need to get a special fuse.
  Sam: Well, hello? Have they ever heard of an "out of order" sign?
  Jason: It's the courthouse -- nothing works right here.
  [Sam sighs]
  Jason: Might as well relax. We could be here for a while.
  Sam: "For a while." Yeah, sure, why not? That's kind of the day I've been having, actually. I spilled coffee on my new outfit before I even left the house. And then I -- and then I was going to work and I had to detour off and I had to go all through this road construction. It made me 20 minutes late to work, and then I got to work and I broke a heel in probate and I had to put on really uncomfortable shoes -- these ones, actually -- and they're killing my feet. And then I was accused of stealing confidentialities, and now I'm stuck in the elevator with my security-risk ex, who everybody thinks I'm covering for. And if that's not enough, I have to take my G.E.D. test tomorrow, yes, and I haven't studied for anything, no. So I'm probably going to fail. Would you mind if I scream, because you're just standing here being all calm and insufferable.
  [Sam sighs]
  Jason: I can't fix the elevator. I definitely don't know anything about your shoes, but maybe I could help you pass your test.
  [SCENE_BREAK]
  Carly: It took me a long time to realize how badly you were abused, mainly because you didn't like talking about your childhood.
  Sonny: Mm-hmm.
  Carly: But every time you did, it was always about Deke and how he beat you and how he locked you in the closet. And I used to wonder if Adela even knew what was going on. Then I had two kids of my own and I realized there's no way she couldn't have known.
  Sonny: That piece of crap was beating her, too.
  Carly: Okay. And?
  Sonny: "And?"
  Carly: I realize that Adela was abused. That comes with a whole different mindset. But why didn't she grab you and get you the hell out of there? Why didn't she fight, for god's sake? You used to tell me things, and I would wonder, "Where the hell is his mother?" I used to picture Michael and Morgan screaming their heads off while some pig was pounding on them, and I couldn't even visualize it, Sonny. Because you know what I would've done? I would've grabbed a skillet of bacon grease and thrown it in his face, and then turned around and beat him with it. Because there's no way I would let anyone hit my kids and then live to do it again.
  Sonny: My mother wasn't like you, Carly. She wasn't strong.
  Carly: You're as strong as you need to be, Sonny.
  Sonny: Well, that's -- that's -- my mother used to say that. Now, I -- I mean, she -- she used to say "We're as strong as we need to be."
  Carly: And that's a load. She should've been strong before you had the hell beat out of you. You can yell and scream at me or you can throw things at me -- I don't care. I'm going to say it anyway. You might as well have been alone.
  [SCENE_BREAK]
  Nikolas: He's a wonder every day, huh?
  Emily: Yeah.
  Nikolas: Are you sure you're up to see that mare?
  Emily: I really want to. I just don't know if we should take John to the stables -- the horses might scare him.
  Nikolas: No, no --
  Emily: Here you go, buddy. Oh, goodness. There we go.
  [Emily gasps]
  Emily: Here we go.
  Nikolas: Good boy.
  [Emily laughs]
  Nikolas: Cassadine men aren't afraid of horses. Telling bedtime stories -- that's a different issue, huh?
  [Emily laughs]
  Nikolas: I'm going to put this --
  Emily: Well, John won't have that problem for a long time. He has you for that. Shall we?
  Nikolas: Yeah.
  Emily: Here we go. Okay.
  Nikolas: Here we go.
  Emily: Bye-bye.
  Nikolas: Alfred will keep an eye on him, too. Let's go.
  Emily: Okay.
  Colleen: This isn't good, little one. Your father could end up with that -- snip, and your great-grandma wouldn't like that at all. Now that I'm getting to know Nikolas, I'm not sure I like it, either, so we have to do something to convince Nikolas that you're not that safe in Miss Emily's care. Hmm.
  [SCENE_BREAK]
  Elizabeth: Hey. I thought you were on duty for a couple more hours.
  Lucky: Yeah, well, I left -- not that it matters. I don't even deserve to call myself a cop.
  Elizabeth: Where did that come from?
  Lucky: There was no bullet wound found in Manny when he died, which means the shot I fired must've missed. You know that little shiny medal that they gave me and promotion to detective? It was all based on lies. I didn't kill Manny. Jason did.
  [SCENE_BREAK]
  Sam: Can't be here. I can't go through with this like this -- with the way things are or the way things aren't. I'm not really -- I just want to go home right now. Okay. Fine. You want to quiz me? Quiz me.
  Jason: Oh, okay. What's -- what's your worst subject?
  Sam: I don't know. Gee, pick one, any one -- science. We'll start with science.
  Jason: Science. Okay. "The prefixes of alkalines that are higher than four use traditional Latin what?" What? Is it too -- easy? Hard?
  Sam: I have no clue what the answer is. I'm not even sure I understand the question.
  Jason: Okay.
  Sam: Ugh, gosh. Of course, this is it, you know? Sam McCall trying to conquer -- conquer the world. I -- I must've forgotten the basic rule of my life -- I never get what I want.
  [SCENE_BREAK]
  Sonny: What was my mother supposed to do? Deke was a cop, everybody -- everybody thought that he was the greatest guy in the world. If she had left him, he'd have put out an A.P., and he'd have found us, assuming we even got to the bus station, and I got to tell you something. If my mother had embarrassed Deke or made him look like a thug in front of the entire town, he'd have made our life a living hell. Or let's say she fought back, picked up a skillet like -- like you said you would've done, or, God forbid, killed him? His brotherhood would've sent my mother to prison, and then where would I have been?
  Carly: There are ways around things, Sonny.
  Sonny: Yeah.
  Carly: Did Adela ever try and get help?
  Sonny: No.
  Carly: Did she go to counseling?
  Sonny: Counseling -- that's -- that's something that was -- only rich people did. There was no counseling in my -- in my neighborhood. What you did was you shut your mouth, and you dealt with the issues in-house.
  Carly: Okay, so tell me how that works -- on a daily basis.
  Sonny: What?
  Carly: Did Adela lie? Say the bruises and the welts were caused by you both being so clumsy? All the absences at school were from colds and the flu?
  Sonny: Yeah.
  Carly: But I thought your mother loved you, Sonny.
  Sonny: My mother was scared. You got to understand that.
  Carly: Here's what I understand. Your mother went to her grave protecting Deke with a lie, and did absolutely nothing to protect an innocent little boy. You blame Mike for abandoning you? Your mother abandoned you and she never even left the house.
  Sonny: She loved me.
  Carly: Then why didn't she fight for you?
  Sonny: I don't know. She -- she could have, I guess. I -- I couldn't -- I couldn't do it myself. Um -- why didn't she fight for me?
  [SCENE_BREAK]
  Alan: This is the full four-week regimen.
  Patrick: What about my position here?
  Alan: I expect you to carry on as usual. You're going to have to take extra precaution, but the chances of you passing on the virus to a patient is minimal -- that's even if you test positive.
  Alan's voice: I'd recommend anti-viral therapy and we must start it immediately -- AZT. It means you would take six tablets a day for two weeks. I must tell you, there are some side effects -- headaches, nausea -- but most patients find it manageable. In two weeks, we'll run another blood test. If your blood test is okay, we'll consider adding another drug. In the meantime, we can't afford to lose you, Patrick. You're an exceptional surgeon. We all need you here. You keep your chin up.
  Patrick: Thanks, Alan.
  Patrick: Well, tomorrow I'll either be bending over a patient or a bucket.
  Robin: Or both. Hopefully, not at the same time.
  Patrick: I understand you a lot better now. Although, the risk of me giving it to a patient is incalculable, there's that feeling that you know it's inside of you. You could be that less than 1%.
  Robin: But it is manageable. You just incorporate the new way, and eventually it becomes who you are.
  Patrick: Wow.
  Robin: So if you're infected -- and I -- I pray to god that you're not -- you will find a way to deal with this and you will never let it hold you back.
  Patrick: Yeah.
  [SCENE_BREAK]
  Nikolas: She's a beauty, isn't she?
  Emily: Yeah, I can understand why you absolutely had to have her.
  Nikolas: Yeah. What's wrong? Where's John?
  Colleen: In his room. He -- he's okay -- now.
  Nikolas: "Now"? What do you mean, "now"? Colleen, what's wrong? What happened to John? Where is he?
  Colleen: I found John asleep face-down in the bassinet. Babies can smother and die that way; it can cause SIDS.
  Emily: Oh, my God. I'm -- I'm so sorry. I -- I could've sworn I put John on his back.
  Nikolas: No, it's -- it's okay. No harm done, it's all right.
  Emily: Oh, well, I'm grateful that -- that you came in when you did. I don't know what I -- I would've done if I'd harmed that beautiful boy. I swear, Nikolas, this will never happen again.
  Nikolas: No, of course not. It's -- no, it's okay.
  Emily: My God.
  [SCENE_BREAK]
  Lucky: I'm no hero. I'm no super cop. I can't even manage a single shot across the roof.
  Elizabeth: Well, maybe -- maybe your bullet didn't hit Manny, but by you showing up, the sound of your shot, it created a distraction --
  Lucky: What --
  Elizabeth: So that Jason could throw Manny off the roof.
  Lucky: They don't hand out medals for that.
  Elizabeth: I'm sorry. You're still my hero. Isn't that enough?
  Lucky: Yeah, I guess it'll have to be.
  Elizabeth: Baby, I'm sorry. Come here. What's this? Are you still taking these?
  [SCENE_BREAK]
  Sam: Cosine equals B over C.
  Jason: That's right
  Sam: Oh.
  Jason: I mean, you've only missed the first one. This -- you're doing good. Good job.
  Sam: Yeah, but -- don't be nice, please. Alexis is always nice and it drives me crazy because I know it's just an act. My mother thinks I'm a bimbo, you know, and why wouldn't she? Because she is an intellectual with degrees all over the wall. She does the Sunday crossword with a pen, and I -- I don't even have a high school diploma.
  Jason: Who cares what she thinks? I mean, look at what you've accomplished on your own. You're a survivor. You live by your wits, you supported yourself, you made a life. Sam, this is just -- this is just a test you're going to pass because you can do anything that you set your mind to.
  Sam: I can't have you back, can I?
  [SCENE_BREAK]
  [Sonny sighs]
  Sonny: I don't want to go through this process and end up hating my mother. She was a -- a good person and a generous, kind heart. She did love me.
  Carly: I know.
  Sonny: Maybe she wasn't strong enough -- I don't know -- smart enough, brave enough. But it doesn't -- it doesn't make her a bad person.
  Carly: I never said Adela was bad. In many ways, she was a saint. But you need to look at the whole picture if you want to be able to get any clarity. Everything you are today came of age in that apartment, Sonny, in that closet, with those people. And if you want to figure out what drives you, you need to see them both as they were -- neither demonized nor idolized.
  Sonny: Other than my mother, you were -- you were the person who influenced my life the most. It's kind of ironic because you two couldn't be more different. She was gentle, you're like a bulldozer and --
  [Sonny laughs]
  Sonny: And she was quiet, and you're, like, the noisiest person on the planet.
  [Carly laughs]
  Carly: Thank you.
  Sonny: No, I'm just -- it's just that I'm starting to figure out that the definition of a good woman is not somebody who's -- who's just sweet and nice and all that kind of thing. You need to have some fire and you have to be able to stand up and you have to be able to protect your children when -- you know, at any cost. Whew. I've -- I've kind of done a disservice, kind of been quick to judge with you, because I had preconceived notions and -- you -- you're an amazing woman, and my -- my children are -- are very lucky to have you as their mother.
  Carly: Thank you. That means a lot to me.
  Sonny: You know, I mean, you -- you took a big chance coming here, making me see what I didn't want to see. I mean, why, did you think that it wouldn't turn out ugly?
  Carly: Because I know you. And whether you realize it or not, you're ready to get better. I just was along for the process. I want to make something clear. I have never doubted in my mind, ever, that your mother didn't love you. I know that she would want you to be happy and she wouldn't want you to think about all the bad things that happened to her, and she wouldn't want you to think about what she did or she didn't do. She'd want you to be whole, Sonny, and she would want you to be happy. You have to make the choice.
  [NEXT_ON]
  Elizabeth: Have you been taking these pills the entire time?
  Lucky: You set me up! All you really wanted to do was bust me.
  Jason: Don't think I ever stopped loving you.
  Sam: I miss us.
  Jason: So do I.
  Carly: You were wonderful to me -- I knew I loved you.
  Sonny: You don't have to leave.
summary: Nik thanks Alfred for his matchmaking, but says he does not want to impose on Emily. Emily blows up at Sonny for yelling at her about how hard therapy is, and Carly backs Em up. Sonny admits that he can never be as strong as Emily or the prince she needs. When Carly finds out what's wrong; that Lainey said that it might be his mother's fault that he was beaten and he needs more meds, she says Lainey's right, and she'd have kicked Sonny's mother's butt into next week for putting up with the beatings he endured. Sam tells Lucky that he will never catch Jason, and that Jason killed Manny. Emily runs to Wyndermere after her confrontation with Sonny, to Alfred's delight, Nik's pleasure, and Colleen's consternation. Patrick deals with the aftermath of his exposure to AIDS with Robin's help. Sam crams for her GED. Liz discovers Lucky is taking drugs. Colleen makes it appear that Emily endangered John. Carly is able to get through to Sonny.