Today I was going to put down my wonderful cat Binx. I was going to take him to the vet and hold him and cry while he passed quietly. But my baby cat has never been one to do things by the book and that’s not what happened.
I should have gone yesterday. I could tell that he was ready, but I put it off so Adorabeezle could come with me. I knew I needed someone with me, but I wish I had been stronger. This morning I woke up to the most horrible noise I’ve ever heard. It was a struggle for him, and I began praying fervently that the Lord would just take him. About half an hour later he died in my arms. He did no go peacefully, and I did it alone.
It was awful. Yet I am relieved. I’m relieved he is no longer suffering. I’m relieved that he won’t need to take any more pills that he hates. I’m relieved that he doesn’t have to fight for his life anymore.
Right under that relief, I am devastated and the tears will come. But if nothing else, throughout his entire life, this cat has taught me that I am strong. That I can face what I don’t think I can handle. That I can do things I never thought I could. Binx saw me through a lot in a few short years and I will miss him terribly. It was a honor to call myself his mama, and I will always love him.
I apologize for my continued absence. I will be mourning and moving over the next few days. I will be back, Internet, but until then please remember my baby.
I am so sorry to hear about Binx. And I am so sorry you had to go through those painful last moments, but you were there for him. He died in the arms of the person he loved best and he didn’t have to pass away alone. You were there for him when he needed you the most and that is the best we can do as pet owners. Sending lots of love and prayers your way.
Thank you so much Julie. Your words are much appreciated.
I agree with Julie. He died in the arms of the person he loved best in the world. I am so sad for you and love you so much. Know that we are here for you and do not hesitate to ask for anything!! Praying for you!
Thanks love.
Liz I can not even imagine the pain you are going through. But you are the best furmama a kitty could ask for. It is a blessing that you could be there for him. Praying for you.
Thanks lady
My heart breaks for you Liz. I’ve been thinking about you these past couple weeks and checking your blog for updates. I am very very sorry for your loss, but it must be comforting to know Binx is now at peace. I bet he was very happy to have you close to him in his final moments. Thinking of you…
-Alex
Thanks so much lady
I’m so, so sorry. He had such a wonderful mama and a good, good life. Bless you both. Praying for you, Liz! xo
Thank you so much!