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	Hey guys and welcome back to the Growing Through It podcast.
	I can't believe I'm saying that because it has been so long.
	I have missed you guys.
	I am so sorry for taking such a long break between season one and season two, but we are back and y'all, God has taught me so much, so much.
	I don't know if y'all can hear the nervousness in my voice because I feel like I'm so excited to share what the Lord has taught me that there's just no way to find proper words.
	There's no way to explain effectively what God has done and what he's shown me and his glory that has just been poured out.
	So I'm going to try my best, but we needed to take a break.
	We needed to take a break between season one and season two because this is my first time ever having any type of platform, any type of podcast.
	There was so much that I needed to learn and I think it was super important for me to get away and to tap back in and fast and pray and ask God, what do you want to share to your listeners?
	What do you want to share to your children?
	Because you guys are his.
	He is trusting me to speak to you through his word.
	And so I have to make sure that my ears are being unclogged and that I am listening, listening effectively and making sure that I am hearing exactly what God wants me to say to you guys and that my own thoughts or opinions or whatever is not getting in the way So it has been a sweet little break I definitely needed it.
	But, y'all, there is so much warfare in isolation.
	So isolation is necessary, right?
	Especially if you are called, if you have an assignment, which all of us are to something, isolation is absolutely necessary.
	We see that Jesus right before he was about to go on the greatest mission and assignment of his life, that he went and he fasted and he prayed.
	And what happened He was tempted and attacked by the devil So even though this isolation has been so good and peaceful and kind, and I loved my little time with God, there has absolutely been warfare that I've experienced during this time and so much that I've learned, so much that I've struggled with, had to wrestle with And if I'm being honest, it was not always easy to return back to this because of that I had so much fear and insecurity And I mean, like, can we just be real for a second?
	Like, this is hard.
	Putting yourself out there is hard, especially if you're like me and your whole life, you've tried to be more on the shy side, a little bit more reserved, a little more introverted.
	You are very private.
	And so putting myself out there publicly has been extremely new and difficult and challenging And it has stretched me in ways that, like, I didn't even think I could be stretched But it has also shown me new sides to my relationship with God that I didn't even know existed And it has been so beautiful.
	But there has been warfare.
	And I mean, if this is not encouragement for you guys, if you are doing something that you feel is the right thing, if you're doing something that you feel God has told you to do, but you are experiencing warfare, don't let that be discouragement to you because we see that Jesus experienced warfare in his time with God, in his pursuit of his assignment And so, of course, we're going to experience it as well And literally this morning, y'all, I have a funny story for you.
	Literally this morning, I have so many stories for you and how, like, warfare, it is coming every way, like almost the traditional ways, like the enemy whispering doubts and fears into my mind.
	But like physical warfare has happened.
	Even OK, so during season one, there was one day where I was getting ready to film and I had everything set up.
	And if I don't know if you all see, but there's a window behind me if you're listening and not watching, there's a big window behind me in my house because we've recorded my house This is not a studio And I don't know how.
	I do not know how.
	But as I was recording one day, a bumblebee appeared right outside this window.
	And it was one second outside the window and then it was inside my house.
	And like, I am checking, are there holes?
	Are there cracks in the window Is the window open Literally, there is no way for the bee to enter my house.
	It is just inside my house.
	And, y'all, I love nature.
	I am a nature girlie all the way I'm not really scared of bugs But one thing I do not mess with is bees.
	I had a traumatic bee accident when I was eight years old where it involved my dad having to take my pants off in a parking lot because a bee flew in my pants.
	And so we, me and bees just don't go together.
	And this bee is now in my house.
	And I am panicking because I have cats, two cats, who are tormenting this bee.
	It is flying around.
	My cat ends up getting stung I'm trying to catch it Everything is going wrong.
	And so that happened in season one.
	Tell me why today I'm getting ready.
	I'm preparing I've prayed I've fasted I am so excited for season two A wasp appears outside my window and like this, it is inside my house.
	It was almost like I was watching an illusion happen.
	But see, the difference between season one and season two is in season one, I panicked.
	I'm like, God, all these obstacles keep happening right before I'm going to film.
	Like there have been times where my camera randomly stops working.
	My audio randomly stops working.
	Like the light goes out.
	Like even in the episodes that I have filmed with my husband, something crazy starts to go wrong every time I try to record.
	And in season one, I would have said like, God, you just, you must not want me to do this podcast because you are not making it simple for me.
	You are not making a path for me to do this podcast.
	You are not, you are not paving an easy way for me to accomplish this.
	So you must not want me to do this Right But today, after I've fasted, after I've prayed, after I've been challenged and stretched by God, I saw that wasp and I was like, you are not going to do this to me today.
	I am filming today in Jesus name.
	And I, when I tell you, you know, the wasp is no longer with us.
	I wish I could have caught him and saved him and set him free, but he was very angry and it was me or the wasp in that moment.
	And let me just say the wasp had to, had to take the L, had to take the L today.
	And you know, I just, I saw that wasp as like everything that I have faced while trying to glorify God, even just my Christian walk.
	And so I just want to encourage you guys today that if there is a wasp in your life, multiple wasps, multiple things, adversities that are trying to keep you down, that this is a part of the Christian journey.
	It does not always mean that you're on the right path or you're doing the wrong thing.
	Like I know with me, like the second a friendship starts to show any type of difficulty or a relationship or a job starts to not look how I envisioned it to look, I'm like, okay, this must not be it.
	But I think that God is telling us like, would you seek me?
	Would you ask me?
	Would you see if I'm trying to show you new things about yourself and even better trying to show you new things about me?
	And like God has shown me so many amazing things about himself that like, I feel like I knew, but maybe I forgot.
	Maybe I forgot and I almost got too comfortable in my faith.
	And I'm so expectant of what God is going to do that I've put it in a box of what he can do instead of like expecting almost new things and him to reveal himself in new ways.
	And so, yeah, guys, it is, it has been hard.
	Like I cannot lie as much as I've learned and I've been excited.
	I've also been really, really, really fearful to return because I've shared this a little bit in my testimony, but I think I come off as a very confident person sometimes or I come off as like put together and I got it all figured out.
	But that is not me.
	That is not me.
	I struggle so much with my mental health, with my confidence, with insecurities, with not feeling good enough.
	And it got to the point where I'm like, so excited to start season two, so excited to start recording again and speaking about God's word to you guys.
	But because I was so scared, I'm like, how could I possibly do this?
	Like, I feel like I cannot overcome it and I'm praying and I'm trying to seek truth, but like, to be quite honest, it just feels like those voices won't go away.
	And so one day I was on my walking pad.
	Yes, I have a walking pad I am a granny True and true OK, I have a walking pad And I love it.
	It helps me get my 10K steps in a day.
	I love it so much.
	And on my walking pad, I usually take that time to listen to a podcast or watch something that I want to catch up with.
	But something that I haven't done in a while is clicked on a sermon.
	Usually I just wait to hear a sermon on a Sunday, but it has been a minute since I've clicked on a sermon on YouTube and I'm going through and I'm flipping through different podcast episodes, different videos.
	And I see this sermon by Stephanie Ike that just sticks out to me.
	And it's called Where Are You?
	And y'all, I cannot encourage you enough to watch this sermon.
	It is so, so good and it changed my life.
	And I know it was the Holy Spirit that prompted me to click it.
	But I am.
	Yeah, so I'm on my walking pad and I click the sermon and I'm listening to it.
	And she is just speaking to me, speaking to me, speaking to me.
	And there is something that she said that I almost tripped on my walking pad.
	Keep in mind, I'm going three speed, but I almost like tripped and fell over because it was so good and I do not want to butcher it, but I just felt God's presence enter the room when she said it to the point where I had to stop the walking pad and fall on my knees and start to pray because it was just that strong.
	She said in her sermon that there was a reason that Jesus trusted Judas with money, even though he was a thief.
	And I heard that and I'm like, okay.
	So a little bit of backstory, if you are newer to the Bible and you don't know Jesus is the one who ends up betraying Jesus and turning him over to the Pharisees, to the Romans, into which he would eventually be crucified.
	And so Judas was originally a disciple.

Hey guys and welcome back to the Growing Through It podcast.

I can't believe I'm saying that because it has been so long.

I have missed you guys.

I am so sorry for taking such a long break between season one and season two, but we are back and y'all, God has taught me so much, so much.

I don't know if y'all can hear the nervousness in my voice because I feel like I'm so excited to share what the Lord has taught me that there's just no way to find proper words.

There's no way to explain effectively what God has done and what he's shown me and his glory that has just been poured out.

So I'm going to try my best, but we needed to take a break.

We needed to take a break between season one and season two because this is my first time ever having any type of platform, any type of podcast.

There was so much that I needed to learn and I think it was super important for me to get away and to tap back in and fast and pray and ask God, what do you want to share to your listeners?

What do you want to share to your children?

Because you guys are his.

He is trusting me to speak to you through his word.

And so I have to make sure that my ears are being unclogged and that I am listening, listening effectively and making sure that I am hearing exactly what God wants me to say to you guys and that my own thoughts or opinions or whatever is not getting in the way So it has been a sweet little break I definitely needed it.

But, y'all, there is so much warfare in isolation.

So isolation is necessary, right?

Especially if you are called, if you have an assignment, which all of us are to something, isolation is absolutely necessary.

We see that Jesus right before he was about to go on the greatest mission and assignment of his life, that he went and he fasted and he prayed.

And what happened He was tempted and attacked by the devil So even though this isolation has been so good and peaceful and kind, and I loved my little time with God, there has absolutely been warfare that I've experienced during this time and so much that I've learned, so much that I've struggled with, had to wrestle with And if I'm being honest, it was not always easy to return back to this because of that I had so much fear and insecurity And I mean, like, can we just be real for a second?

Like, this is hard.

Putting yourself out there is hard, especially if you're like me and your whole life, you've tried to be more on the shy side, a little bit more reserved, a little more introverted.

You are very private.

And so putting myself out there publicly has been extremely new and difficult and challenging And it has stretched me in ways that, like, I didn't even think I could be stretched But it has also shown me new sides to my relationship with God that I didn't even know existed And it has been so beautiful.

But there has been warfare.

And I mean, if this is not encouragement for you guys, if you are doing something that you feel is the right thing, if you're doing something that you feel God has told you to do, but you are experiencing warfare, don't let that be discouragement to you because we see that Jesus experienced warfare in his time with God, in his pursuit of his assignment And so, of course, we're going to experience it as well And literally this morning, y'all, I have a funny story for you.

Literally this morning, I have so many stories for you and how, like, warfare, it is coming every way, like almost the traditional ways, like the enemy whispering doubts and fears into my mind.

But like physical warfare has happened.

Even OK, so during season one, there was one day where I was getting ready to film and I had everything set up.

And if I don't know if you all see, but there's a window behind me if you're listening and not watching, there's a big window behind me in my house because we've recorded my house This is not a studio And I don't know how.

I do not know how.

But as I was recording one day, a bumblebee appeared right outside this window.

And it was one second outside the window and then it was inside my house.

And like, I am checking, are there holes?

Are there cracks in the window Is the window open Literally, there is no way for the bee to enter my house.

It is just inside my house.

And, y'all, I love nature.

I am a nature girlie all the way I'm not really scared of bugs But one thing I do not mess with is bees.

I had a traumatic bee accident when I was eight years old where it involved my dad having to take my pants off in a parking lot because a bee flew in my pants.

And so we, me and bees just don't go together.

And this bee is now in my house.

And I am panicking because I have cats, two cats, who are tormenting this bee.

It is flying around.

My cat ends up getting stung I'm trying to catch it Everything is going wrong.

And so that happened in season one.

Tell me why today I'm getting ready.

I'm preparing I've prayed I've fasted I am so excited for season two A wasp appears outside my window and like this, it is inside my house.

It was almost like I was watching an illusion happen.

But see, the difference between season one and season two is in season one, I panicked.

I'm like, God, all these obstacles keep happening right before I'm going to film.

Like there have been times where my camera randomly stops working.

My audio randomly stops working.

Like the light goes out.

Like even in the episodes that I have filmed with my husband, something crazy starts to go wrong every time I try to record.

And in season one, I would have said like, God, you just, you must not want me to do this podcast because you are not making it simple for me.

You are not making a path for me to do this podcast.

You are not, you are not paving an easy way for me to accomplish this.

So you must not want me to do this Right But today, after I've fasted, after I've prayed, after I've been challenged and stretched by God, I saw that wasp and I was like, you are not going to do this to me today.

I am filming today in Jesus name.

And I, when I tell you, you know, the wasp is no longer with us.

I wish I could have caught him and saved him and set him free, but he was very angry and it was me or the wasp in that moment.

And let me just say the wasp had to, had to take the L, had to take the L today.

And you know, I just, I saw that wasp as like everything that I have faced while trying to glorify God, even just my Christian walk.

And so I just want to encourage you guys today that if there is a wasp in your life, multiple wasps, multiple things, adversities that are trying to keep you down, that this is a part of the Christian journey.

It does not always mean that you're on the right path or you're doing the wrong thing.

Like I know with me, like the second a friendship starts to show any type of difficulty or a relationship or a job starts to not look how I envisioned it to look, I'm like, okay, this must not be it.

But I think that God is telling us like, would you seek me?

Would you ask me?

Would you see if I'm trying to show you new things about yourself and even better trying to show you new things about me?

And like God has shown me so many amazing things about himself that like, I feel like I knew, but maybe I forgot.

Maybe I forgot and I almost got too comfortable in my faith.

And I'm so expectant of what God is going to do that I've put it in a box of what he can do instead of like expecting almost new things and him to reveal himself in new ways.

And so, yeah, guys, it is, it has been hard.

Like I cannot lie as much as I've learned and I've been excited.

I've also been really, really, really fearful to return because I've shared this a little bit in my testimony, but I think I come off as a very confident person sometimes or I come off as like put together and I got it all figured out.

But that is not me.

That is not me.

I struggle so much with my mental health, with my confidence, with insecurities, with not feeling good enough.

And it got to the point where I'm like, so excited to start season two, so excited to start recording again and speaking about God's word to you guys.

But because I was so scared, I'm like, how could I possibly do this?

Like, I feel like I cannot overcome it and I'm praying and I'm trying to seek truth, but like, to be quite honest, it just feels like those voices won't go away.

And so one day I was on my walking pad.

Yes, I have a walking pad I am a granny True and true OK, I have a walking pad And I love it.

It helps me get my 10K steps in a day.

I love it so much.

And on my walking pad, I usually take that time to listen to a podcast or watch something that I want to catch up with.

But something that I haven't done in a while is clicked on a sermon.

Usually I just wait to hear a sermon on a Sunday, but it has been a minute since I've clicked on a sermon on YouTube and I'm going through and I'm flipping through different podcast episodes, different videos.

And I see this sermon by Stephanie Ike that just sticks out to me.

And it's called Where Are You?

And y'all, I cannot encourage you enough to watch this sermon.

It is so, so good and it changed my life.

And I know it was the Holy Spirit that prompted me to click it.

But I am.

Yeah, so I'm on my walking pad and I click the sermon and I'm listening to it.

And she is just speaking to me, speaking to me, speaking to me.

And there is something that she said that I almost tripped on my walking pad.

Keep in mind, I'm going three speed, but I almost like tripped and fell over because it was so good and I do not want to butcher it, but I just felt God's presence enter the room when she said it to the point where I had to stop the walking pad and fall on my knees and start to pray because it was just that strong.

She said in her sermon that there was a reason that Jesus trusted Judas with money, even though he was a thief.

And I heard that and I'm like, okay.

So a little bit of backstory, if you are newer to the Bible and you don't know Jesus is the one who ends up betraying Jesus and turning him over to the Pharisees, to the Romans, into which he would eventually be crucified.

And so Judas was originally a disciple.

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